"Hour follows hour like water follows water...."

"...everything is governed by the rule
of one thing leads to another..."

"...don't fool yourself
into thinking things are simple
nobody's lying, still the stories don't line up
why do you try to hold on
to what you'll never get a hold on
you wouldn't try to put the ocean
in a paper cup.."
"...cuz i have had something to prove
as long as i know there's something
that needs improvment
and you know that every time i move
i make a woman's movement
and first you decide
what you've gotta do
then you go out and do it
and maybe the most we can do
is just to see eachother through it."

"..hour follows hour like water in a river
and from one to the next
we don't know what each hour will deliver
we just call it like we see it
call it out loud as we can
and then afterwards we call it all water over the dam.."
"..maybe the moral higher ground
ain't as high as it seems
maybe we are both good people
who've done some bad things
i just hope it was okay
i know it wasn't perfect
i hope in the end we can laugh
and say it was all worth it.."

"..we make our own gravity to give weight to things
then things fall and they break then gravity sings
we can only hold so much is what i figure
try and keep our eye on the big picture
the picture keeps getting bigger."
Ani Difranco

This is one of my all time favorite songs. I love Ani DiFranco. I was playing this song on my iPod on my way home today for the first time in a while and tho it talks about a failed love affair, it pretty much applies to life regardless.

I used to think this song was sad and tragic, but now I realize that it is exactly the way I am living my life right now- moment to moment and hoping that in the end I can laugh and say that it was all worth it. 

I got am FB friend request from someone I've never met today  She is friends with some friends of ours that we met thru the SCA when we lived on the East Coast.  She sent me a message saying we didn't know each other but she thought that I sounded awesome and wanted to be my friend!  HOW COOL IS THAT?

A woman I work with who is fast becoming an AWESOME GF (my Girl J)  sent me a link about tattoos (This one in particular reminded her of me.)
http://www.tattoosforgirls.org.uk/post/3619778588/sweetestcherry-im-the-toughest-girl-i-know

I've been considering getting a tattoo to commemorate this whole experience and just haven't totally fixed on what I want to do.  I'm getting my nipple tattoed on after my reconstruction....Bizarre right? they tattoo a nipple onto your breast so it looks like a real breast....I figure if I'm going through all the trouble to get a tattoo, I'd rather get one that I can show off, since, in my opinion a nipple isn't the MOST attractive thing that I could look at.   

WHOA there Hubby and any other men reading this who will STRONGLY disagree, but let's face it, it's like a man's package...yes, we can say it's attractive cuz me know what it's capable of, but really if you take the sex part away, wouldn't you rather look at a really nice piece of art?  That's what I'm talkin' bout!

(around the nipple option)

So the conundrum is do I get the nipple tattoed like a nipple and then get something decorative around it?  I've been thinking flower of some sort and yesterday whilst floating in my pool (I know, this Cancer thing's a bitch ain't it????)  it came to me that a lotus flower would rock...but then...do I get it around the nipple or instead of the nipple?

cool buddha on a lotus option

(According eastern beliefs Lotus bloom symbolizes rebirth. In Buddhism, it is the most essential symbol for spirituality and art.

(above the nipple and then swing the stem around it? option)

White lotus signifies the state of spiritual perfection; red lotus is related to the purity of the heart and can have the meaning of love and passion. The pink lotus is the perfect of all and stands for the deity, when the blue lotus symbolizes the wisdom of knowledge.

The lotus also denotes truth and enlightenment, especially to those of the Buddhist faith. In a lot of ways, it expresses the quest for truth and enlightenment amongst the darkness and struggles of life. excerpted from a blog at http://www.types-of-flowers.org/blog/meaning-of-lotus-tattoos/)

YOU  KNOW I'm gonna want to show that bad girl off... but then, that might not always be acceptable in all situations, like in case I meet the queen of England or something like that.   I was thinking that getting a pink ribbon tattooed on my left pec might be a nice little reminder, but then again, I've always wanted a arm cuff or a wrist bracelet tattoo and I thought tattoing a pink bracelet with the ribbon theme would also be cool.  I suppose that theoretically I COULD do all these things, but I don't want to go overboard or anything like that  :).    So if you have any ideas or recommendations, feel free to leave a comment telling me what you think.

Oh, last but not least, here is a cool new community site called I had cancer.  AND thanks to my punk rockabilly girl S, I got me a NEW user name.....so I'm changing it here too!!!!
This works a lot like FB in that you need to be invited in, so if you know of anyone who would like an invite, shoot me an email and I will send them an invite.

Here is the link:
http://beta.ihadcancer.com/pixie_badass/edit/profile-description