Friday, January 20, 2012

"It makes sense that it should feel this way...

"It makes sense that it should feel just this way
That you slowly fade and yet still remain
As if to say: Everything matters in such an invisible way
As if to say: It's O.K.
Fly...away"  Poe

I haven't been around much lately.  The upside to feeling better.  There hasn't been too many interesting things to report. Christmas and New Years went by and wasn't too overly stressful.  The weather's been a bit weird for MI. Just this week we started getting some snow.  I'm not complaining.

Connor broke his thumb right Christmas break,  greenstick fracture, caused by getting hit by a hockey stick in gym.  He just got it off this week, on Tuesday, the same day we commemorated the passing of our dog, Roxie, one year ago.  She had cancer, too.  Trying to explain to your 10 year old that just because we put the dog to sleep because of her cancer didn't mean the same treatment plan for Mom.

I did a lot of knitting before xmas and I think even more after-   Hat for my sis-in-law in charcoal and raspberry Alpaca/acrylic blend.  The Chilly Podster mitten for my sis- that was challenging but I think I need to make myself a pair, they are very warm and useful!

After Christmas knitting was done, I started on stuff for me.   I made a couple of Hair hats for me- when I'm feeling the need to have a little extra flair.
Both using Lion Brand homespun, one in brown with all colors, blues, pinks, greens, and one in tan, grey and white. Then I felt the need to buy some delicious Malabrigo Merino to make another one, but now that I have it, and have 2 hats, I'm not sure I want to make a 3rd hat the same or find some other fun project to use it for.  It's heavenly soft, my SIL's friend made me a bonnet in lavender Malabrigo and it's heavenly to wear around the house. I started on my sock stash until I can figure out what I want to do with it.

Next Monday is my last session of Chemo with Taxotere!  I'm very excited to be done with the cell destroyers, even though this round of chemo has been much gentler than the first round.  I still have 10 more months of IV Herceptin every 3 weeks, then the Tamoxifen, but my hair is already starting to grow back in on my head at least.  I have dark stuff in the back like when I first shaved it off, still nothing on the top...but I'm feeling encouraged that I may have something to work with maybe in a month or so.

I met with Dr. Booby, a few weeks ago, too, my last fill, and then I told him I was done- schedule the surgery, so I will be having my tissue expander removed and my new boob on Feb 22.  After that, we'll schedule the lift for the right boob and then I'll have to figure out if I want a fake nipple or a really cool tattoo on the robo boob.  I'm opting for the tattoo but I know I should wait to see how it looks.

Two semi-antique velvet wing chairs
and a table/lamp for the music room
Other than that, I've been doing some improvements around the house, small stuff, and Estate sale shopping, my dream come true, and got some truly beautiful pieces of furniture for the house at great prices.  Connor also requested that we update his room to a more mature theme, so I went fabric shopping and found some beautiful curtain material and then my mom threw me a king size sheet in the perfect tan color to use as a duvet cover.  I just need to free up the kitchen table so that I can start sewing.

I'm trying not to think what happens beyond that. It's all beyond my control at this point. So I am just focusing on enjoying my time off, feeling better every day, and getting through my surgeries. After that, who knows what will happen?
New Linens for Connor's room

my prize, a curvy front dresser, as the buffet
in our dining room


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